Day 14: New Eyes

One of the requirements for my Masters is to complete many hours in my internship. Some of these hours need to be learning how to observe teachers. In my head I thought this will be easy, just watch, write down, and discuss. Well that's not the case. I went around with my principal today to observe teachers. The point of me tagging along was to understand what needs to be done, what to look at, what to look for, and how to actually do the observation. It was very eye-opening. We visited 4 different teachers. Every room was completely different. I found myself very nervous. I have always been the one being observed and I am always nervous when the principal walks in, even though I know what I am doing, my plans are working well, and the children know what's going on. But it is different when you are doing the observing. It was a great experience to see how other teachers teach.

I'm going to tell you something about myself and most of you are going to laugh and might not believe me. I'm very shy. I know you think differently. But I really am. I think that's why I was nervous when I entered the rooms to observe today. I am very shy when I am in a room with people I do not know. One the the things that I had to work hard at during this internship and Masters program is to learn to interact more with people. I had to make myself speak out in front of people. It has been very hard for me. When I was growing up I was very shy. I usually did not talk to anyone. During the Olweus Bully Prevention training, we discussed students in our schools that are being bullied. As a student, I was bullied. I hated going to school and riding the bus. I was picked on because of the color of my hair...red. It was not until college that I actually like my hair color. My mother would not let me change my hair color plus she made me keep it short.  I hated it!! My mother is a completely different discussion. That could go on for days.

I feel like I have rambled on tonight. I'm not sure if I have even made sense. Sorry if it is confusing. I'm very tired tonight. I was up at 4:00 again this morning.

I want chinese food tomorrow for lunch, just sayin' team.

KK