New Day

Well I'm glad to report I kept my promise from last week! I went to play poker with my friends and had a great time! I also promised I would walk. I did! It was much easier going down the hill from my house than it was on the way home back up the hill! But I did it. Tomorrow starts a new day. I have packed my lunch from home every day this week. My goal is to stop eating school lunches. Apparently they are not as healthy as they claim to be. I have either eaten a school lunch or stopped at WaWa on the way to school. So that's out now. Tonight, Sue is making her famous and also so delicious meatloaf, mashed potatoes, glazed carrots, and deviled eggs. This is our final meal, after this we will be watching what we eat very closely. We went to the grocery store, got all sorts of very healthy options for our meals. We got a new melon. Galia...ever heard of it? So good. It is a hybrid melon from Israel. It tastes very much like cantaloupe. It is very sweet and best served cold.  We got lettuce so we could make lettuce sandwiches instead of bread.

School (Masters Program) has been stressing me lately. I have a big paper due this Monday. I have an online computer class with modules due all the time. I need to get my taxes done, plan a birthday party, get ready for my Art show, and I feel like I am sinking. So, what I find that I am doing is just putting it all off. Instead of doing school work, I am blogging right now, will be playing stupid Candy Crush or Matching with Friends or tending to my lovely farm animals on Farmville 2 later. I play these games because they tend to numb my brain and they do not require my thinking on my part. I promised my self I would sit down and work on at least one module for this computer class. So as soon as I'm done here I need to get to work. Maybe I'll sneak in one round of Candy Crush before I start, you know, to relax my brain!!

I mentioned planning a birthday party. Lilly will be One year old on April 3. So the problem comes in because that day falls on a Wednesday. The weekend before her birthday is Easter weekend. The weekend after her birthday is my All County Art Show, all day from 10:00 to 5:00!! So I need to figured out when and where we will have her party.  Speaking of Lilly, she saw a nutritionist the other day. She is eating more calories for her age than she needs however she is also as active as a three year old. So the plan is to add more calories to her daily diet. She is very healthy and small. Its ok. Brittany is the best mother around!! She is doing everything perfectly right for Lilly. Lilly is very lucky to have Brittany for her mommy. I love them both so much. I got to spend the entire weekend with them and I enjoyed every second of it and cried when they went home. I miss them both every day. Enough said.

Back to school. If anyone reading this, other than my school family, would like to donate food to our school food pantry, we could really use it. I am in charge of our food pantry. We send home back packs of food for the weekends to our families in need. Many of our students do not have much to eat over the weekends, some of them don't eat again until Monday morning when breakfast is served at school. So the Encore team developed a back pack program that allows them to have meals over the weekends. We have provided turkeys and bags of food forThanksgiving and hams and foods at Christmas. We would like to have hams for Easter. Our pantry is running low now. We have reached out to several local businesses and churches and many of them are trying to provide help. If you would like to donate or know of an organization that would like to help out please contact me at beckettk5@hotmail.com.

Supper smells sooooo good. I can not wait to eat!! Because the weight loss starts tomorrow!!
Hopefully you will see less of me soon!!

Buenas Noches,
KK

Lazy Day

I spent my day off in my pj's, yes I did, all day!! It was very enjoyable! I watched tv and played on the computer and a bunch of other stuff. One of the things I did was write a letter to the Ellen Show. She has a place to ask for a car for someone that needs one.  Brittany is in desperate need of a car. I hate that I am not able to get one for her. So I filled out the form and told them her story. The story of Lilly and how Brittany has to take her to doctors appointments and therapy visits by borrowing a car. She even needed to call the ambulance once because she has no car. I hate that I can't help her more than I do.

I spent the weekend with my parents. We had a very nice visit. We went shopping, out to eat, and just enjoyed spending time together. Mom helped me decorate the first floor bathroom. We did a beach theme. I love it. It looks so nice.

It's back to work tomorrow and I have a hundred things to do. I am getting to the point that I hate work. There is always something that has to be done, right away. I just can't teach. There is paperwork and other projects that need to be completed. I only have seven more years of this. Hopefully, I'll still love it as time passes.

I just realized that Lilly will be a year old in a month and a half. A year old!! It seems like yesterday she was just born. She has been the biggest blessing to our family. It seems like we have all gotten closer because of her. She is so happy, and she makes us all very happy. I smile every time I think of her precious face. I miss her so much. Sometimes I'm jealous that Jim gets to be with her everyday and I don't. She cried when she came to see me and I held her. It took her a few minutes to warm up to me. I don't think that would have happened if she were always with me. She reacted her little hands up to my face, took off my glasses, and felt all over my face, then laid her sweet head on my chest as if to say I remember you Mimi. I can't wait to hear what her voice will sound like. She has been signing a lot lately, even putting two words together. She is so smart.

It seems like since I have more time for myself I tend to do nothing. I need to be up exercising and doing more things that I like. So I plan on going to play poker one night this week. I miss playing cards and I miss my friends. As for the exercising, I guess I need to make time for that too (and actually do it). Why is it so hard to exercise? I just need to stand up and MOVE. But it is soooo hard. I wish I could run and get the same feeling my friends do. All I feel is pain everywhere and then exhaustion! So maybe I'll start with a walk. Ok, I promise one day this week I will walk, I promise! I promise! I will, really. I will also get my exercise ball blown back up. Bill that's on you! I need to borrow your air thingy, please.

Ok, to sum it all up...poker one day this week and walking one day. Sounds like a good plan!! Would it be too much to ask for a two hour delay or a snow day this week? I would like one really, really good snow, you know like 6 to 36 inches would be fine with me!! Off to lala land.

Good night all,
KK

It's been a while

It has been a long time since I have written anything. I have discovered that trying to write every night is just not going to work. I have finally moved the last of our belongings out of our house. The last car load left today. I am very happy to have all the behind me now.

I have found myself overwhelmed with grad work, school work, and home work. Trying to balance all of those is very tricky. There doesn't seem to be enough time for them all. So one or two of them seem to suffer. I feel like I should have some "me" time, but then I start to feel guilty that I am neglecting something else. So I sat myself down today and worked on my online computer class, in hopes of getting something crossed off my list. I feel good about the amount of work I completed. However, I am still feeling behind. I keep having these panic attacks and fears that I have forgotten something or that I will not get it all finished. So i am hoping that it's all under control.

Since the last time I wrote, Lilly has had a great report from the doctor...she does not have anything wrong with her growth hormone!! What a blessing from God!! The doctor thinks she might just be burning more calories than she takes in. She is such a good eater. She will eat anything Brittany fixes for her. She loves food. Brittany has been teaching her sign language and she is signing several words now. It is nice to know what she wants especially since she doesn't talk yet. She is such a sweet, happy baby. She is coming to see me this Friday. and I can't wait!

I also took Jim to the doctor. He has lost about 50 pounds. He looks very thin now. He looks like he is sick now. Before I had people tell me, "Well, he doesn't look sick." Just because someone doesn't look sick doesn't mean they are not sick. I have come to learn that a lot of people have no filter when it comes to dishing out their opinions. I have heard all sorts of rude stuff come out of peoples mouths regarding Jim, Lilly, and my friends baby because he happens to be small like Lilly. Why can't people just keep their nasty, hurtful comments to themselves instead of voicing them when no one wants to hear them. It seems like I have to watch what I say to them but they don't do the same thing. Ok enough of the bitching. I really am worried about Jim. I feel like he is just melting away. The doctor has changed up his medications so I am hope there will be a positive change soon.

I got to have lunch with one of my best friends today!! It was so nice to visit with her and catch up. It seems like yesterday when we first met at school. We talked about it today that when we met Jonathan was just two years old!! So small. Now he is all grown up.  Time sure does have a way of slipping by. We talked about the fact that now, along with two other friends, we are the oldest members of our school, not oldest in age but length of time at our school. WOW! It just boggles my mind. I can remember things from long ago and it really feels like yesterday.

Well, I'm all talked out and best head off to sleep because the alarm will be going off before I want it to.

Good Night All.
KK
PS--Good Morning Jeannine, I hope you are enjoying your breakfast!!:)